My name is Stuart I am but four, My eyes are swollen As I lay on the floor, I must be stupid, I must be bad, What else could have made My daddy so mad? I wish I were better, And maybe not ugly, Then maybe my Mummy Would still want to hug me. I can't speak at all, I can't do a wrong Or else I'm locked in the cellar All the day long When I awake I'm always alone The house is dark My daddy’s not home When my Mummy does come I'll try and be nice, Cos when Daddy’s around We have to be as quiet as mice Don't make a sound! I just heard a car My daddy is back From The Hop Pole Bar. I hear him curse My name he calls I press myself Against the cold walls I try and hide From his evil eyes I'm so afraid now I'm starting to cry. He finds me crying He shouts nasty things He says it’s my fault My beatings it brings He slaps me and hits me And shouts at me more, I finally get free And I run for the door. He's already locked it And I start to bawl, He takes me and throws me Against the hard wall. I fall to the floor With my bones nearly broken, And my daddy continues With more shouts not spoken. ‘Please Daddy, No’ I won’t do it again I’m such a bad boy I’ll be better at 10 His face has now twisted Into unimaginable hate. And now he will leave me In that broken state The hurt and the pain Again and again Oh please God, have mercy! Oh please let it end! And he finally stops And heads for the door, While I lay there motionless Sprawled on the floor. My name is Stuart And I am but four, Tonight my daddy Has just abused me some more! There are thousands of kids out there just like me who suffer on a daily basis – you can turn a blind eye and consider this to be too nasty to read or you can take a courageous step forward and share a moment in my world. We can only bring change by doing something positive – the first Step is to listen and to let Stuart cry out to you for help because in my world nobody else did! www.stuarthowarth.co.uk Back >